That's Love.

My servent grew up in the Lord's presence like a tender green shoot, like a root in dry ground. There was nothing beautiful or majestic about his appearence, nothing to attract him to us. He was despised and rejected - a man of sorrows, aquainted with deepest grief. We turned our backs on him and looked the other way. He was despised, and we did not care.

Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our mistakes. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's path to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all.

He was opressed and treated harshly, yet he never said a word. He was led like a lamb to a slaughter. And as a sheep is silent before the shearers, he did not open his mouth. Unjustly condemned, he was led away. No one cared that he died without descendants, that his life was cut short in midstream. But he was struck down for the rebellion of my people. He had done no wrong and had never decieved anyone. But he was buried like a criminal; he was put in a rich man's grave.

I'm sorry

April - the busiest month of the year.

So for some reason, April seems to be the busiest month of the year. Between going to my siblings track meets/7 on 7 football games and helping my mom transport them places, hosting my sister's party, etc, I just don't seem to have any time for anything! Hopefully during the summer, things will be smoother since my siblings will be out of school. Bentley and Rafe are both doing great - growing so fast. Bentley is almsot 22 months, and Rafe is almost 5 months. I can't believe how fast they're growing! I mean, Rafe is going to be crawling soon (God help me!) and Bentley is almost 2. Time is just slipping by!
Levi has enough credits to graduate in December, and hopefully once he has a legit degree, he can get a better paying job with good benefits and I can quit my job and be a stay at home mom. I just don't like how Bentley and Rafe have to be in daycare and stuff all day. It's not fair on them. I mean, I don't know. They'll end up fine, but I just don't like that I have to miss out on a lot of new things Rafe does and things like that. Call it selfish, but that's just how I feel. I mean, besides. Whenever I'm at work, all I can think about it wanting to be at home with them. I would just rather be with them.
Levi and I are talking about another baby. He REALLY wants a girl, so he wants to try again as soon as possible. But I'm not ready, haha. There's no way I'm about to try again for another baby right now. I mean, if I got pregnant right now, that's only 14 months between that baby and Rafe. That's not gonna happen. The 17 month difference between Bentley and Rafe was tough enough! So we decided that we'd revisit the matter in December, when Rafe turns one, and just see how everything turns out with Levi getting a job, etc.